my friend

 4.3.11(jumaat, morning)

          today, i have view all my classmate blog. ad yg kelakar, ad yg serius, ad yg main tulis just for rquirement assgmnet sj, n mcm2. lega rasa nya bila dah tau isi hati masing2. sebelum ni akulah person in the class that not friendly to others. i dont know why. i'm a person that not easy to be friendly and attach with other people. i take time in makes friend. that why in the class i'm not public figure. i just can tell them what i'm feeling through my smiling only and through from my sour face, ermmmmmmmm... what can i say, i my self are still trying to find my self. even my age is 23year 5month, but i still don't find who i am. i'm struggle every day to find my identity. that one reason i didnt talk with other people. and i don't know how come i make close friend with princessnore. i'm hepy to see my classmate having fun with each others, I'm glad that they hepy. sometimes i see 'friend' is like somthing that give us 'nur' and happiness, that why i appreciate them. i just don't know how to say to them and have chit chat with them. but lately, few my friend say that from their feeling that they are not my friend. sad.... but it's ok, people make mistake. and i always make mistake in making friend. that why it hard to me to be closed to anyone. however, i like to tell them all my feeling through writing, and not by chit chat or face to face. that is my ways. that how i communicate with other people. even to my mum, i'm comfortable to write down my feeling. i like to let go my feeling through writing, and so thanks to my lecturer, the person who responsible force me and my classmate to create this blog. before this, i try to find something that make my classmate to understand me, and now i found it. i wanna ask you somthing,  is better for me to be closed with other just through the penulisan and not by gurau senda or like the normal communication. i'm looking my self. by the way, i'm still hepy with all this environment. coz i'm able to muhasabah my self. i want to remember to all my friend and my self, that life is not long, so in order to get the 'jannah', i dont want to hurt many people. that why i dont like to talk to much. kata pepatah, terlajak perahu, masih boleh di undur lagi, terlajak kata buruk padahnya... so i dont want to be like that.
pun bagai mana walau, i have my own kekurangan n kelemahan with my ways, however, i wish to all my friend we are together in jannah and i dont care any gosip about me.pendek kata, i really love my friend, just i dont know how to say. but incase i hurt someone, please forgive me. and one more thinks, last day i had realized one my friend didn't like me, n don't know y, firstly i apologize whatever my weakness that she hate very much.  guys, i'm still loving you all.